I feel random tonight...

Well yes there have been clashes and also there has been triumph, but there’s a big question mark on peace! Seldom we fall under circumstances where the world invariably vanishes and refuses to appear in front of our eyes. And apart from the negligence this world shows to us, we are left blindfolded. Like everyone would, I hate this phase too. When I think now what exactly is wrong with me tonight, I come to count people and their names. And then perhaps I think am I really wrong ? or they are ? will they readily take the blame? Or must I impose? Or should I go by the notion “who gives a damn ! “
Suffocated am I enough , yet I know I will survive. The odds are brave and so aren’t the people close enough to cause the required damage. Thank god I feel safe now! After conjecture and contemplation I feel that whatever that was in my mind was because it needed an amusement to avoid the rather disturbing things going on around. For if I had been so keen to look onto them and so carefull about their presence in my tiny mind, I would have considered them before. And I second the phrase that an empty mind is not only a devils abode but a shitty atmosphere to rely on . So i realise that its better not to give a damn. Because one year from now, even that sounds too much. Lets say one or two months from now, the things will vanish from my mind and I will have new people and things filled in. Yes they will suffocate me again, but then do I have a choice? I obviously cannot live without people around, I love them playing mean , dirty , slutty and whatever. But in the end, they are a part of what I give to them, or rather i must say a part of what they think I give to them. What goes around , comes around. And time will tell what comes and goes by mine and their side.
To realise not everyone will be good, in fact most will not be good anymore. They will abuse , irritate , ditch and slaughter your hopes? It’s still not about disappointment. Don’t crib like all the people Ekta kapoor knows. Look around and find a thing that you genuinely want to do at that very moment. Probably you would want calling me. I am all here till you want. Till the lights turn off again, I will think if this randomness has an end. The next morning perhaps would promise more sunshine and clarity in thoughts. I need it just like you.

Dedicated to all the thoughts ignored !! I would love tackling you , but you just don’t go by my ways. Till you fall in love with me and my peace and agree to go by my ways, I’ll be waiting ...
I love and hate you equally ! :P