Friday, October 16, 2009

Dum D Dum D Dum ...

Confused...don’t be ...

Haven’t you ever heard....oh don’t tell me...this sound...this such a common sound... like the background music of ekta kapoor... come of very situational... ok I’ll not stretch it more...

It comes just before introspection. “ Dum D Dum D Dum “ and here comes the realisation.

You ask what realisation....realisation of doing something you always wanted to do...or something that ached you since ages but you got over it , that very moment...the realisation you just felt blessed...one that makes you feel that life is worth it...or the “ Dum Dhadam “ when u realise that ....shit....u screwed it up....

I have had all of them...say myriad times....

And you ask why am I mentioning it....what difference will it make to you....

Nothing.....no difference....but what if my thoughts change the way you take these realisations as...what if it changes mine too...

I thought this when I just got caught in a fight....with a friend....sometimes....all you want to do is run away... But wait....what’s always more important...the friendship...the ego...nothing ...or something...that kept two people together.... I don’t know... and I might not know....

Realising what lies beneath...dumped...which is layered by so many emotions...anger ...fear.... I wish u had....I wish I had ....I wish....CRAP...

Don’t these emotions have the all time right to pester people ? the ones they govern so fondly....for showering zillion trails and situations...some that rob us of our peace and some that ( sometimes though) give a hint that all’s fine...as if....the silence before the disaster.... they ruin everything we have....or say try and make up things...

I feel they ...if rightly expressed...have an art of saving what you have...rather than destroying them..stay ...gather thoughts...how many you lost in this fight of realisations...that you always would have otherwise wanted..to be with you...this diwali ...mend relations....if not stitch them completely.... do not spoil their built....save them....these are all you would ever need ...

For my friends J

Again J

Love

sakshi

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